Just a little summary

My first blog! If you’d asked me 6 months ago I would have told you never would I ever start a blog! Posting personal problems online was fine for others to do, I could even understand why some people would enjoy it, or find it helpful in some way, but I didn’t think I would be one of them.

I guess that changed!

A year after I got married we bought a house and decided it was the right time to start our family. So I came off the pill and we started trying, fully aware that it can take a while. However 18 months later there was still nothing, I was starting to feel time ticking by and since I was due for my bi-annual check up with the gynecologist I thought I’d ask him for some advice.

He sent us for various blood tests, hormone tests, sperm cultures, and scans, which all came back absolutely perfect. There was nothing wrong. We had no diseases, his sperm was well within the norm, my hormone levels were perfect, and ovulation happened as it should. The doctor called it ‘unexplained infertility’. There was no medical reason for us not to be able to get pregnant, but it just wasn’t happening. And that was hard for me accept.

I felt that as a woman I should have been able to fall pregnant, and I was embarrassed that I couldn’t. The few friends I had confided in all told me it was good news- nothing’s wrong, it just takes some people longer, keep at it… but hearing that, over and over, didn’t help. It only highlighted the issue for me- I still wasn’t pregnant. The doctor was talking about artificial insemination, I didn’t really know what that was, but we did the last few tests necessary, and took all our paperwork to the lab to see if they would accept us. That was 2 weeks ago. A week later we had phone call to make an appointment to talk with one of their biologists, and last week we went to meet with her.

We were there for about 45 minutes, while she explained all our results to us, exactly what every number meant, and why it was all ‘average’, for want of a better word. She said we qualify for help with conception (which in France means we’ve been trying unsuccessfully for 18 months or more), and then she went on the explain in detail exactly how it is done and what to do next. I know it was only her job, and she’s probably done it a thousand times already, but I was so grateful to her. I came out of that tiny room feeling so much more positive than I had in months. Or course I’m still scared that it’s not going to work, but all the same, I do feel better.

Simply because of my cycle and the timing I went to collect my first load of drugs yesterday evening, and I should be giving myself my first injection tomorrow. After months of waiting I feel like all of a sudden I’m moving again.

Not going to lie, I’m really quite nervous!